Tears Reap Joy: Restoration from the Inside Out A Story of Forgiveness, Repentance and and Renewal

We all have a few chapters in life we do not want to read aloud; Tears Reap Joy was that chapter for me. Tears Reap Joy can be seen as a story of forgiveness, healing and looked to as a true testimony of my life. In the beginning I did not quite understand how God operated, so I started to establish my performance; my life on the recognition I thought I would receive from God only to find out my value was being manufactured on all the wrong things and all the wrong people. I was driven by many unresolved conflicts that I allowed to settle in my heart. Soon my bitterness intensified and with each passing year, the veneer covering of perfection depleted the authenticity of who I was. Considering the fact that many of us have been hurt, I gave so many people control over my life, I made the decision not to forgive. My unforgiving ways created a bitterness that poisoned my thoughts; unforgiveness was a poison I took daily in hopes that the guilty would succumb from it. In the end, as I went through many battles, God exposed to me that he was only shaping me in the process of my trials, he was transforming my life, preparing me for things to stir up the spirit of God within my development. God shifted things so I would come out on the other side better and much stronger, with my best days still in front of me. A full confession of all my sins was the only way I could face my truth. And in my repentance, forgiveness started off with a clear understanding of who I was and if God was able to forgive me in my stages of guiltiness, then I had to be willing to forgive others of whom I perceived were the guilty against me. The act of forgiving gave me a clear understanding of those I was once unable to forgive. Forgiveness requires work as forgiving others is not a choice for us to make as God has given us very specific instructions that can be found in serval scriptures of the Bible to forgive. Forgiveness freed me from my past. Forgiveness allowed me to receive the anointing from the Holy Spirit. Forgiveness motivated me to write this book.